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had a "soapy" dream this afternoon
last night i couldnt sleep cause of sick thinking, no-reason worries n just simply couldnt help staring at the pitch blackness of the night.
imagined the existence of the other, 6000 miles away.
i heard cactus breathing deeply beside me.....inhale, exhale, inhale silently....


things have taken me to a whole new level
where i dont just know my limits but also know how to push it, keep pushing it,
harder.


i'm scared.
(pretty girls are everywhere so...lol)